Reminiscing in my Home Town (Pinson, AL)

We are visiting Pinson, Alabama, this week—the place I loosely call home.

I say “loosely” because I’m not 100% sure where home is, and I haven’t been for some time. My soul has been stretched across the globe. Now “home” is not so much a geographical location as it is wherever my beautiful wife and son are.

Semantics aside, this small town outside of Birmingham is where my parents raised me. It is a place where I am never far from the bones of my paternal ancestors.

This is a place where childhood nostalgia lingers in the air.

I spent my first two decades of life here, not realizing just how much bigger the world was and how little I understood it.

I drive by my childhood home and remember turning over rocks in the back yard in search of creepy crawlers. The less fortunate ones would end up captured and put in a jar for an indeterminate amount of time. We had a large outdoor light that illuminated the back yard after the sun went down. I would sit up at night and stare out the window when I was supposed to be sleeping. I remember one night spent imagining that I could interpret the noisy exchange of neighborhood dogs into human language. My sweet mom had the unenviable task of trying to get me out of bed every morning after these nighttime vigils.

Speaking of yards: driving around these familiar streets reminds me of my first job as a teenager—cutting grass. I mowed the lawns of my grandmother, great aunt, and two unmarried sisters that lived down the street (all of them have long since passed away). Our 1974 brown Ford pickup (which I affectionately called the “Dr Pepper can”) was the way I usually moved our equipment from house to house once I was old enough to drive. I worked and worshiped in these yards under the hot Alabama sun, always armed with my yellow, waterproof Walkman. I listened to countless hours of Charles Stanley sermons or my favorite music while marching behind the lawn mower. I’m sure there was also some daydreaming mixed in with my perspiration. That lawn mower, by the way, was bought at Sanders hardware, owned by my dad’s cousin.

Thoughts of these long-gone years bring a smile to my face. But they are mixed with memories of teenage angst that leave me with no desire to turn the clock back. I was a hopeless romantic and an aspiring athlete, both of which were sources of bitter disappointment in my high school years. I always seemed to fall for the girl that was just out of reach. My physical skills (or lack thereof) were not a good match for football, my favorite sport.

I also cringe when I think about some of the sermons, devotionals, and Bible studies I wrote and presented during the latter part of this era. I’m thankful that only a few survive as cassette tapes buried in a drawer. I’m deeply grateful for the church that nurtured my faith and endured some of my first attempts at teaching and preaching. I knew God had called me, but my understanding of both the Scriptures and life was fairly superficial back then.

I graduated high school and attended a community college located just a few miles away (Jefferson State Community College, which we called “Harvard on the hill”). Not exactly an adventurous move, but a thrifty one that did result in a slight change of scenery (new faces, at least). There I connected with one of my most cherished mentors, Momma Jo Randall.

Jo introduced me to a like-minded group of students in an organization known as the Baptist Campus Ministries (BCM). This rag tag group of friends would prove to be some of the best people I’ve ever met. Quite a few of them have become pastors, and most of them are faithfully serving God in some form or fashion. A couple of them are my closest friends to this day.

There they are—a few random memories from my first two decades.

The life I have lived looks radically different than the one my naïve mind had envisioned back then.

But I wouldn’t have it any other way.

2020: The Year in Review

I usually write a review of the year around this time. Here goes:

Covid Madness

As I mentioned in a previous post, I underestimated what Covid-19 would do to the world. I have lived through both SARS and Swine Flu, neither of which had much of an impact on my life. I thought Covid-19 would come and go over the course of a few weeks.

I was wrong, of course. There was a lock down, immediately followed by a mad rush on toilet paper and even some groceries.

I remember posting a couple of pictures from the store on my Instagram account during those first couple of weeks (one was of the paper supplies section at Sam’s; the other is of the breakfast cereal isle at Walmart):

I will say this: I believe the way most governments (note the plural–not just America) have approached this pandemic has been an unmitigated disaster. It seems like we never recovered from a doomsday forecast that was not properly peer reviewed before it was put into circulation.

I believe the draconian lock down strategies have done more harm than good to society as a whole (this medical doctor from Sweden has written a good article about it). I am concerned about children (particularly children from poor families) who have missed months of education over a virus that poses no real threat to them (statistically speaking).

Re-evaluating Social Media

You may disagree with the above assessment of lock downs, and that’s OK. I won’t argue with you about it on Facebook/Twitter, because 2020 was also the year I decided that social media is not a very good place to discuss/debate these and many other issues.

Social media became incredibly toxic this year, at least from my perspective. I saw (and still see) people ranting and arguing about masks, medicines, vaccines, bizarre conspiracy theories, racial issues, and let’s not forget politics. I have cut back on posting anything other than Bible verses, devotional material, and pictures of my family. This has been good for my soul.

Church/Ministry

We stopped having worship services when the first case was confirmed in El Paso back in March. I did the best I could to minister to our congregation through email, YouTube and Zoom meetings while we were not meeting in person. These online formats are useful, but I must confess that it didn’t take long for me to get tired of virtual “meetings.”

Our church did start meeting in person again in June. Attendance has fluctuated as Covid cases and hospitalizations do the same here in El Paso. We are still doing Sunday worship for the remnant who feel comfortable attending.

We hired a new staff member in the middle of all this. He’s doing a great job with our children/students and I’m still amazed that we found him (or he found us).

I wish we could do more as a church, but I’ve been blessed by the faithfulness of God’s people during this difficult year.

Doctoral Studies

The final phase of the Doctor of Ministry degree involves leading a team through some type of process which enhances/improves your church’s ministry (and writing a detailed report of it). By the grace of God, and with the help of a wonderful ministry team from my church, I was able to get this done in 2020. I passed the oral defense of my ministry project report back in October and earned my doctorate.

I will forever be grateful for the opportunity to study at Gateway Seminary. I’ve learned so much over the past three years! Finishing this degree was a much-needed shot in the arm in the midst of a very challenging year.

Family

My son is growing in size while my lovely wife continues to grow in beauty. I’m thankful that I’ve had these two with me before, during, and after the lock down!

We did not get to go out and do much this year for obvious reasons. But we were able to go to Alabama a couple of times to visit extended family–most recently in November.

I was a bit conflicted about traveling and potentially exposing family members to Covid (since El Paso has been a hot spot). But tomorrow is never promised, and we don’t regret taking advantage of the opportunity to see them.

Notable Books

I didn’t have quite as much leisure reading time this year due to all the writing I was doing. But here are a few great books that I did find time to finish:

I started off almost every morning in 2020 with two devotional books: My Daily Pursuit (AW Tozer) and Being Still With God (Henry and Richard Blackaby). These devotionals, very different in style, were both great blessings to me.

Two theological books stick out in my mind from this year. First and foremost, Sam Storm’s Kingdom Come was a fantastic read. This is a book about eschatology–the doctrine of the Second Coming of Christ. I don’t think I’ve ever read such a long book (over 500 pages) so quickly.

I also finished The Potter’s Promise (by Leighton Flowers) a few days ago. Flowers is a former Calvinist who changed his mind about the doctrine of soteriology (salvation). He now believes that Christ loves every person and died for all. He explains how he came to that conclusion in this book. Very well-written.

Note: another great book on soteriology is Kenneth Keathley’s Salvation and Sovereignty. I read this one years ago, but it always comes to mind whenever I read a book about the nature of salvation.

I’ll also mention a book I read on pastoral leadership: Second Thoughts: 100 Things Small Church Pastors Need to Reconsider, by Dave Jacobs. This book was full of great insights/ideas for those who pastor small churches.

Final Thoughts

I’m sure most of you are ready for 2020 to be over with. I am too–it’s been a tough year.

But God is good, even in difficult times. And 2020 had more blessings than I deserved. I have so much to be grateful for, and I can trust God for whatever He has in store for us in 2021.